so it's been a while since i wrote on here... let me tell ya. not too much has happened lol. i'm not even sure if anyone still reads my xanga... i am a sophomore in college now. pretty exciting let me tell you. i haven't written too much poetry in the past year. kinda depressing. i have found a new "haylie" and allyce knows what i mean. sometimes i think i keep to myself too much. i feel as if i have this secret past that i can't even tell anyone about. its a dirty secret.

hmm it's weird, but i can't just straight up tell you about "my secret life". i turned 20 last month. wow, i can't believe i've been out of college for two years now. its crazy to think i'm a real grownup already. i'm going to london this summer. study abroad. which i can't wait for. london for a whole month and the drinking age over there is 18 so i will be gone for a month then i come back and 6 months later i'm 21.

of course, there is always a new guy in my life. my new "haylie"... hmm well hes a nice guy. i can't explain how i feel for him cuz i dont know him too well yet. he just makes me wonder "why haven't i found more nice guys like him?" i'm sure he will find some goodlookin girl and leave me in the dust, but i'm just so tired of being alone. tiff and steph (my sisters) have boyfriends and how is it i haven't had one in forever? it just makes me sad.

what else is there to tell you? me andmy friends are thinking about moving to some off campus apartments which should be fun. i can't wait until i'm really onmy own. i mean yeah i am kinda onmy own right  now, but i just depend on others for a lot of things. i'm not worried,  i will be a grown up soon enough. well thats enough of me going on and going on about myself.

sooo you should comment. k thanks.